Yesterday marked week 6 of my healing journey. 12 hours after my emergency surgery to re-attach my detached retina, my surgeon told me that it would be a long recovery, and that my cooperation would be critical to regaining my eyesight. I was thinking he was talking about two weeks, maybe three. And even if needed, it couldn’t be more than four weeks. 

But my surgeon looked directly at me and said, “It will be a 6-8 week healing process.”  I sure was hoping it would be closer to the six weeks. But today I find myself, one day past my 6 week mark, and I am still waiting. 

Sure, there has been much healing that has taken place. While I cannot say my right eye looks normal again just yet, it is day by day returning to its former appearance. I am no longer having to lay face down with my eye parallel to the ground for hours on end. The eyedrops I am required to take have been reduced from 4 drops, 4 times a day, to 2 drops, 2 times a day. Vision has begun to return to my right eye, and I can now see well out of the top of it. And that bothersome gas bubble has slowly started to dissipate. But it still remains at the bottom of my right eye, as a nagging reminder that I am still waiting. 

So, the question for how I am going to live my life currently remains in the waiting. Granted, there are times of frustration and fatigue. But through it all, I choose to worship. I choose to worship the God who has stood beside me through the beginning of this, and who will take me through to the end of this! My mantra has been, “While I wait, I will worship.” That phrase comes from a song I find myself singing over and again, to remind myself. Lincoln Brewster sings, “I live by faith, and not by sight. Sometimes miracles take time…”  

These words have become the capstone of my waiting for God’s healing. It is one thing to say these words when I have complete eyesight in two healthy eyes, and I have often sung this song in the past. But as I sing these words now in worship to my God, they have a more profound meaning than ever before. I have learned not to take my sight for granted. I came face to face with the fact that I could lose my sight, in a day. But my faith and my expression of my faith to God in worship is not dependent on what I can physically see! It is completely dependent on what I spiritually know!

My God is faithful. My God is true. My God heals. And my God delivers. And I will worship Him no matter what. Whether I have my sight physically, or whether I only have my sight spiritually!

Lincoln Brewster comes near to the end of the song: “Though I don’t understand it, I will worship with my pain. You are God, You are worthy. You are with me all the way.” It is easier to worship God when life is good and we have things going our way. But God is worthy of our worship at all times, because He is there with us through all times, even through the dark valleys, and life’s disappointments!

“So while I wait, I will worship. Lord, I’ll worship Your name.

Though I don’t have all the answers, still I trust You all the same.”  So while I am still in this waiting game, I will choose to worship God, for He is worthy of all my praise.  

The Israelites, still in slavery in Egypt, hearing Moses, responded, “And they believed. And when they heard that the Lord was concerned about them and had seen their misery, they bowed down and worshiped.”  Exodus 4:31

Isn’t that interesting? The Israelites worshiped God, even before He lifted one mighty finger to deliver them. That they understood that God cared about them in their suffering, was reason enough to worship! I too have felt and experienced my God’s compassionate care in my waiting. So what will I do while I wait? I will worship the Lord!

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Our God is worthy of our worship, even while we wait!

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